Mom can you hear me? It's Corie

It has now been 41 weeks since I got pregnant and it has been over 3 years since my mom died. As I get all the last minute items packed and try to keep busy not thinking about what lies ahead over the next couple days.... induction starts tonight. My thoughts keep going back to my mom and what was it like for her when she was pregnant with me. So many questions I would like to ask her, the memories of my dad and aunts just don't seem to cut it. I have tried to do a mental check in with her before the last couple big events in my life that she hasn't been here to share... before I graduated from college, a quick hey this ones for you... before my wedding a trip to my mom and grandma's niches, a nice long hard cry so I didn't do it later with mascara running down my face for the wedding pics... and now giving birth. All of these things she would have loved to see, love to be apart of and what a bittersweet experience to be doing this with out her. So mom if you are listening... I love you and know you are watching from wherever you may be hanging out, wish you were here.